Saturday, July 2, 2005

Firecrackers

Tonight is still and humid; the air choked with the smoke of incendiary devices. This is the first Fourth of July holiday when I have been able to walk Bug all the way around the neighborhood park at night. In the past, I have had to listen to his asphyxiated breathing as he nearly hanged himself on the leash, his toenails raking the sidewalk as he tried to flee to the safety of the house. While loud noises do not faze Yo-Yo, Bug is terrified of cars backfiring, skateboards rolling on pavement, and firecrackers popping during New Year and Fourth of July celebrations.

Or I should say was terrified. He has come a long way from the starved, half-hairless rescue I agreed to foster and then adopt. Since Bug was picked up as a stray with no history, I can't account for his fright. I do know that the past year brought two changes. This spring when he lost his winter coat, he started getting gray around the mouth and eyes [I have a feeling he is a good bit older than the six and a half he should be]. He also relaxed one stage further. Rescue people will say that a basenji needs six months to grow accustomed to a new home. Bug has taken [in little increments] four and a half years—and still has a way to go.

I love Bug a great deal [as does Yo-Yo on the days Bug isn't bucking for alpha], but I'm not sure I would adopt another rescue. There are too many unanswered questions. I don't know if Bug's anxiety is a result of fears he learned at the harsh hands of his original owner or acquired after he escaped. I don't know if he was deliberately dumped or lost by a loving owner who just couldn't find him. [Bug does have a peculiar habit of going out of his way to smell cigarette butts, as though he is hoping to find one tossed by a particular person.]

Since I live in the tourist capital of the world, I can imagine that a family traveling by car might have opened the door at the wrong moment, and since everyone was unfamiliar with the locale, people and dog just couldn't find one another. I can also imagine one of the many apartment dwellers in the city letting the poor boy "escape" as a way to avoid any more chewed furniture. Unfortunately, God doesn't grant video check-out privileges as Blockbuster does, so speculation is all I have.

Whatever his story, this year Bug walked all the way around the lake without anxiety about the celebratory noise coming from all sides.

Bug, who always looks worried